Imperative Reaction
Fault
i am dying inside and there is nothing i can do
but what does it matter when there's nothing left to lose
i'm still falling apart like i've always done before
the pain is almost numbing and i'll always beg for more
tried so hard to make believe i was something more
tried so many times to start from where i stopped
but that time has vanished and left me alone to dwell
on all the damage i never left behind
all the things i've ruined and pushed aside
all the times i've lost and will never have again
all the things i'm not but could have been
i am drowning in the past and there is no one to save me
i tried so hard to make it work but the world went on without me
now i stare through the window like a soul without a home
i loathe the way i feel and i hate what i've become
tried so hard to make believe i was something more
tried so many times to start from where i stopped
but that time has vanished and left me alone to dwell
on all the damage i never left behind
all the things i've ruined and pushed aside
all the times i've lost and will never have again
all the things i'm not but could have been
through all the pain i never meant to cause
all the lives i've destroyed and crushed
all the time i have lost and will never live again
Arrogance
Damaged and forgotten
Thanks to you
You fucking liar
It's drowning in the maze
That used to be desire
So let the mediocrity
Tear it all apart again
And let your arrogance prevail
Fractured delusions
Where everything depends on you
Weakened by the habit
Of never coming through
So many questions
You cannot answer
But this will never change
Shut down and pushed below
This numbing silence cannot last
I feel tomorrow fall
Back into the failures of the past
This rusted vault of lies
This distorted compromise
This reminder of what it was
Everything you gave away
Damaged and forgotten
Thanks to you
You fucking failure
It's dying in the haze
That used to be a fire
So let the actuality
Lose it all and fall again
And let your obstinance prevail
Fractured conclusions
Where everything relies on you
Weakened by the habit
Of never coming through
So many questions
You cannot answer
But this will never change.
Giving in to the Change
My friend I've let you down
I'm writing to the sound
Of the pain you once possessed
So long ago
When time was everything
The echoes still resound
From a place where everything
Seemed possible
I've wasted so much time
On waiting for you to see how much
You threw away
When time meant everything
Your promise fell apart
And I stood here without a way
To recover
My friend you let me down
I'm writing to the sound
Of the pain I once possessed
So long ago
When trust was everything
The promise still resounds
From a place where everything
Seemed possible.